I want to smile, but I can’t.
I want to scream, but I can’t.
I want to cry, and I think that’s the only thing I can do.
Why does everybody I know or bring close to me for some reason try to hurt me?
Why do they leave me?
Why do they avoid me?
Why am I so unwanted?
I understand the feelings of loneliness.
I understand the agonies of inner pain.
I understand the darkness of betrayal.
I understand that one must treat others as you wish to be treated
Then why do I still hurt?
My heart cries out with every lash of a harsh word.
My heart screams when I see them speaking in whispers.
My heart cries itself to sleep with every step that walks away.
And every cry feels like my heart is on fire, slowly being squeezed by the hand of Despair.
I don’t know what to do…
I feel so lost…
I can only wear a mask to hide my hurt.
What people see is only the tip of the iceberg of my rioting emotions.
Is Life fair to treat me thus?
Mayhap I deserve it as penance for my misbehavior.
Yet what is considered right and what is wrong?
Lost is how I feel within the maze of justice.
Is it right to have an open mind?
Is it right to strive for dreams and goals?
Is it right to wish for happiness upon our interests?
The past sees these rights as wrong, but the present say neigh tis right.
My past says aye tis good, but my present yells NO it’s wrong.
My mind lives upon a nest of confusion.
Someone help me.
Do I create these illusions within my mind?
Do I walk along the line of lies and truths?
Is my mind still within the vicinity of sanity?
Mayhap there is no hope…for me.
Help Me